the long road home.

The drive back on any road trip always feels about twice the distance and time, but thankfully I had erik there to keep company and have good conversations with.


I got tattooed by grez again today, we worked on my back some more. Its nearing the end and I can't wait. Getting my back tattooed feels terrible.

Ate some great italian food with with matt and erik, I got cheese raviolis and lots of bread and had some fresh fruit for dessert.

Matt and I were super lazy last night that was a lot of fun, ate mcdonalds at 2 38 which is just gross.

Time to get some shut eye.

brooklyn

Im laying on my friend matt gold's couch about to go to bed. today was great and exhausting. i got possibly my new favorite tattoo today. a hanya mask on my hip/side of my butt from mike rubendall.

as always kings ave was awesome, and the trip out there an adventure in its own. walked around manhattan and soho when erik and i got done getting tattooed and then came back to brooklyn.

tomorrow back to long island to work on my back more from grez. miserable and rewarding.

off to bed.

busy day tomorrow. early morning!

nyc tomorrow

I'm heading to the city again tonight, I'm getting tattooed by Mike Rubendall, a hanya mask on my right hip.
One of the few spots I have left that I can actually see. Its always fun to see those dudes, and go to that shop.
I'm going to stop by fred perry and maybe marc jacobs as well.
Wednesday I get my back worked on by grez.

Today was porductive, busy day at the shop and Ryans birthday dinner at dinosaur bbq with a bunch of people.
With the students leaving I hope I continue to stay busy, my clients are solid and hopefully they keep with it.

I worked on a nautical themed traditional sleeve today, I am very happy with how its coming out.

Until tomorrow.

day 2.

I tried to go to bed at a reasonable hour last night.

woke up kinda late.

got to work.


tattooed fun stuff, so today so far wasnt too bad.

back to the gym tonight.

then home.

Am i just going through the motions?

I've been asking myself this quite a bit lately.


Am I happy with my life?

What can I do to make myself happier?

What's missing from my life?



These are questions that have been running around in my mind daily.
I love what I do, and I wouldnt change that for anything. But i constantly find myself wondering if I would be happier in another city. Possible one closer to phx. or. even phx again.

I've been watching friend, and co-workers, and random people who came in and out of my life, get married, start families, buy houses, do the whole " real grown up" thing. I've been finding myself wanting all of those things more than ever before.


Working towards my career goals was a very fulfilling and rewarding experience, and now I am at a point where my personal life goals are something that need to catch up. I feel a need to be selfish in a way. but selfish in a way towards my personal life.


I am going to attempt to post to this thing on a daily basis for a while. even if its a one word post. so. lets see if i can do it.


here's a few tattoos, just cause.

its only after you've lost everything, that you're truely free to do anything.

work, gym, eat, draw, sleep(barely), repeat.



my life is in a weird place. my daily routine is what is kinda keeping me leveled off.

I'm really happy with work. I'm not so happy with everything else.


things are just weird.

and this entry is lame.

oh yeah..

Mike Attack loves fat, black, 75 year old women.. an I'm not talking sorta fat.. I'm talking cut out a wall of your house so a bulldozer can remove your body.

well.

when the weight of the world comes crashing down. its hard to not throw up your hands and walk away. I've been refusing to walk away for a long time now. pretty soon this world is going to get crushed by me.

new...

here's a couple new paintings... bout time i uploaded something...